Day One

My baby has Colic. As I'm writing this I have her in her stroller all belted in while I push it back and forth with my leg. I've never been a multi-tasker but I'm hoping this will help me burn at least two or three calories. Oh no. She's stirring. One eye is gooped shut and the other one is wide open staring at me. Sometimes I call her "Pop-Eye.".......sometimes I say things to her and then wonder if she can understand what I'm saying. Like when I make fun of the patchy bald spots on the back of her head or I call her "fatty." Sure I say it with pride, but she might take it wrong. Let the food issues begin.
This is my first post ...obviously....I had another blog set up called Parent's Podium....but then I realized I didn't know anything about being a parent and I definitely didn't want a podium to call attention to it. :) smiley face.
Pop-eye is sleeping again, I'm going to try to stop moving my leg..........crap. Leg is moving again. We'll see how much further I can get. Sometimes I feel so guilty for not holding her constantly. Like when she's in her baby swing or bouncer and she's awake but I'm not talking to her. Or...in her stroller in the living room. In my mind I think about what her thoughts could be. I gave her a bath and got her all dressed up and then put her in her stroller. I think what if she's thinking, " Mommy and I are going to have the best walk together, I'm all dressed up and we're going out!" but then I don't take her out, I take her to the living room and turn on the computer while I roll her with my leg. Then I wonder if she's thinking, "Wait Mommy, I thought we were going to go for a walk and now I know you're pawning me off on this stupid stroller because I'm not important enough to be held all of the time, I'm so disappointed in you and in this stupid day...I guess I'll just go to sleep and hope tomorrow is better. Maybe I'll wake up with a better mommy." Sigh. I wish they made an emoticon for "Sigh"
Both eyes are open now and she's got a loogey hanging from her mouth that reaches all the way down to the "I like to SMILE" design on her dress. As Charlie (Baby Daddy) would say "It looks like her chin is eating her face."...but what a face it is. I have no idea how I made such a good lookin' baby in spite of the goopy eyes and the small water fall coming from her mouth...and the explosive farts.....she looks like a perfect angel....gotta go...my perfect angel is awake.